There have been very many things that I have been wanting to write about. Of course, I either can't remember what it was or I'm not comfortable with writing about it yet.
Let's start off with what I am comfortable with writing about. There has been so much going on health wise. I finally saw a GOOD doctor, who you could actually tell cares about her patients. She spent some time getting to know me and what is going on. My depression has gotten more severe, not that that surprises me. I've been thinking it has. With so much that has gone on, why wouldn't it? Not to mention the issue that is still staying private for a little longer. (I promise to discuss it, eventually) Then we have the fact that my weight has been bothering me. When I got weighed, it was 129. That is just 4 pounds less than when I was fully pregnant. In order to change this, I am trying to get healthier. I have started by drinking a lot more water. Mainly water, actually. I allow myself a few sips of rootbeer, just to take my medicine. I'm trying to limit on my coffee, as well. I guess we'll see how that goes this week. Hopefully, my kids won't get too annoyed with me. I may get a little cranky. I am, also, looking into getting a nutritionist. My doctor said that it looks like that anorexia problem I had a few years back is still bothering me. Like, I eat, but not enough. My system still gets full easier and I forgot to eat. We're hoping a nutritionist can help with that. Who knows, maybe that and a psychiatrist will help me finally like what I see in the mirror. Next thing is that we want to get my eyes checked. My horner's syndrome has been causing more issues than before. I am now having more light sensitivity issues and that causes more headaches. We're hoping that we can get this all taken care of and maybe I'll be a whole new person.
Next, I had the WEIRDEST dream today while taking a nap with Amelia. It was one of those dreams inside another dream, but with 4 levels. The first level was this guy that I like admitting he likes me. Then the next was that my sister, Michaila, had this hermit crab that was like wrecking havoc on us. It got out of the cage and was leaving stuff for us to find. What kind of stuff? The bodies of full size crabs. Next level was reconnecting with old friends from high school. Ones that we were really close in school but lost touch afterwards. I miss them. Last one, I was a companion of the Doctor. Then I had to go back out each one to wake up. When I did wake up, I wasn't convinced I was awake. I actually pinched myself to make sure I was awake. Multiple hours later, and I could still describe each dream in detail. But, I'm sure everyone would judge me if I said everything.
Last thing, maybe. Michaila successfully moved out on Tuesday, the 6th. She made it to Texas right before midnight on the 7th. She said that she likes it. I kinda miss her though. Just don't tell her. (She doesn't read this, it's okay.)
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