Pregnancy and Asperger's

Girl with Asperger's Syndrome... 9 weeks and 6 days pregnant. Now, am I at all ready to be a mother? No. Not even close. I'm terrified. Then again, who isn't when it comes to having your first child and being a single mother. With Asperger's! Think about it, someone who can't handle being near people too much, is going to be a single mother. Some people may ask why I'm not going to give the child up for adoption with all my "issues" but I could never do that. My mom was adopted, and I saw how she reacts when people talk about her parents. I could never do that to my child. I could never think of giving my baby up and thinking where they are every day and wondering if they are being treated alright or not. I will work my best to be able to give my baby the best life that I can. Even with my Asperger's. Its made me who I am today. Who says it'll be a bad thing to a child. In my honest opinion, it'll teach my child, that when they're older, not to be a bully and to be respectful and friendly to EVERYONE. Especially, when the other person isn't "normal." Chances are, people who are "different" are bullied and may not always like themselves. (This is from personal experience.)

Side Note: I'm hoping this MAY help other adults understand that just because someone is different, they are people, too. I saw, first hand, at work today, that adults are sometimes more immature than children. A guy, roughly 14/15 years old, obviously had Autism, (I did a lot of research when I was diagnosed. You learn the signs.) and my co-workers made rude remarks about him more than any other age group. Now, just so you know, I am the youngest one that was working at the time, and I'm 21 (22 in less than a month)... What does that say about people now-a-days. Yet, people continue to blame "the younger generation"....

About Me

I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome when I was 18. That's eighteen years of not knowing why I wasn't like everyone else I knew. I barely had friends growing up, except my mother, who is still my best friend. Now, fast forward almost 4 years later, and here I am, nine weeks pregnant. It's weird, I don't socialize very well, and now I'm expected to be able to raise a child? There are times where I just want to be alone, mainly because I can't handle being around people too much. What am I supposed to say now during those moments? "Sorry, baby, mommy can't be near you right now"? Talk about hurting a child's self-esteem.