March 21; one day old

So, Amelia is doing wonderfully today! She's got color in her skin. She is breathing much better than yesterday. And she recognizes me. It was amazing seeing her earlier today. We did the skin to skin for an hour and half, and she fell to sleep instantly. Her breathing was so steady, too. Apparently it hadn't been until I held her. It was the greatest hour and half, ever. Sadly, they plan to keep her until, at least, Tuesday. Thankfully, once I'm discharged, I can stay over there with her. The issue is, I need to be discharged but not sure when that'll happen. Apparently, during delivery, I tore so badly that I lost too much blood. More than I thought. When they took my blood this morning, it came back as a low blood count. I'm incredibly pale, paler than my sister. I'm dizzy, tired, can barely walk or stand. My poor mom has to help me get to the bathroom. They're thinking I may need a blood transfusion, but we don't know yet. Should find out tomorrow. If I don't need one, I should be discharged and then be able to stay with Amelia. I guess we'll see. But I have a feeling, with how today has gone, I won't be discharged tomorrow. Knock on wood though! I know staying with Mia(Amelia's nickname) in NICU will be really good for her and will help her get better. So, if I could get better, we'll be home sooner!! I'm going to go see Mia now. Will update again tomorrow!

Best day of my life

Yesterday, the 19th, around 9 am, my panties felt wet. Panties and shorts were completely soaked. My water broke. Weirdest feeling ever. Seriously felt like I peed my pants. About an hour later, we made it to the hospital where I was told that it was, in fact, my water and that I was in labor. Everything started feeling real at that moment. I knew I had a long road ahead of me before I met Amelia. Around 4 pm, I needed my first shot of pain medication. Boy, did I feel good then. Couple hours later, I needed more. Around 1 am, this morning, I needed an epidural. I was in so much pain, yet I was only 1 cm dilated. Finally, though, got about an hour or 2 of sleep. I was awake for some time but didn't check the time until 3:30 am. Then I started to have the urge to go to the bathroom, so I called my nurse to the room to tell her. She, of course, checked me to see if it was that or that Amelia was ready. Well, she was. I just remember the nurse saying "Its baby time." Now, what's funny? My mother was passed out until the nurse said those words and mommy woke up instantly. Either way, the got me ready and I started pushing. I pushed for maybe a half hour before my miracle came out. Sadly, that's when the issues started. I didn't know before, but apparently her cord was wrapped around her neck and she was blue. Thankfully, no one told me this until much later. This wasn't the only issue though. She was having issues breathing. Something called oxygen saturation. She has been in NICU since 11 am this morning. Thankfully, she is doing much better. She's finally pink and breathing. She has an oxygen tube and a feeding tube. I know she is in good hands, but I want my baby with me. Just have to remember that they're doing everything the can to make it so she can come home in a few days. I'll update again soon.

March 7

Baby shower was a few days ago. It was pretty nice, actually. Even if a lot of people didn't show up. Which kinda sucked, but I am so grateful to the ones who showed up. It meant everything to me!! Made out really well. I don't think Amelia will ever be dirty or need clothes. I have PLENTY. She'll be good for awhile. We've got a bath tub for her and a play mat. Now just waiting for the Playard, travel system, and swing. I have them all picked out, just gotta get them. Soon.
Today, is 37 weeks along. Technically, that's considered full time. Therefore, she can come out now... Please?! Mommy is ready to meet you, Amelia! All the lovely pains and kicks can stop at any time now. Just come out. Me and your cousin, Chelsea, want to see how close you and her daughter will be with your birthdays.
There is still so much I have to do. I feel like I'm not even close to being prepared, but I know, with the help of my parents, I'll be okay. That's just what I have to remind myself at least.