Friday, August 23, 2019

Asperger's and the single mom

First, I want it to be known that I came up with the title for this post before even deciding to make a post and what to say in it.
I'm sure a lot of you are sick of me complaining about my life and (lack of) love life. But guess what, I'm sort of doing that in this post too. No, don't stop reading, hear me out. The reason I'm getting impatient with all this is when I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome my mom and I were both told, by 2 different therapist, that I will never live alone. I will never be able to function correctly without someone there. It will only be if I find someone who is willing to help, constantly. They said either a sibling, parent, or spouse. They said to not even think of a friend, that they wouldn't be able to commit like I need them to. I tried to live with a friend once and look how well that turned out, I got pregnant. I figure, at 26, my parents shouldn't have to be the ones responsible for me. I actually think I'm phrasing this all incorrectly. So, I can't exactly function like a normal person. I have more breakdowns than normal people. I have my "your Asperger's is showing" days, I forget things, I need my routines, etc. I could go days without eating if I didn't have reminders. I have my routines built around each shift at work. What I do is a routine. I can handle some changes, but only if I prepare for them. But, those random things that aren't accounted for, that's what gets me. One day, I called my mom and completely broke down in tears because someone filled out a paper that I normally do; but I can make an adjustment if a dog needs an unexpected bath. That's just at work. Imagine what would happen if I lived on my own with just Mia. It would be a trainwreck. I think it's to the point that I shouldn't be home and cramping my dad's style (yeah, I said that) and get out. But, there is 0 chance of me living with my sisters, so I need the husband. I don't want to live with my parents forever, and I'm sure they don't want me here forever. Maybe it'll happen soon. I can hope, right?

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