April 26, 2019

Want to know the hardest part of having Asperger's? When you realize that you really won't get to do all the things you wanted to do. I'm never going to have my sanctuary center. I'll never have my farmhouse that I've wanted. Realizing that there are things that I won't be able to do. I'll never live without someone to help me. You don't think certain disorders will actually stop you from living your life, but they do. You don't even realize it, either. That's the worst part. Not even realizing that it stops you at things. You think you're doing everything correctly, but you're not. Maybe that's just me.
I have officially started medicine for my high cholesterol. I'm not overweight (by much), but I could probably eat better to control it. The worst part is that I also have low blood sugar. Talk about a contradiction. The low blood sugar isn't as bad as the cholesterol is. My problem, I'm only 26! I have all these issues going on. (Thanks mother). I don't think my body realizes how young it really is. My knees still have issues. I'm starting to think it's not tendonitis, like my doctor originally thought. Maybe it's something worse?
Then the bee sting on top of everything else. I just need to be in a bubble. My boss asked me to write a list of my allergies. There were 13 that I could remember. I'm sure there is more, but I have no clue. Thankfully, most of them are minor allergies that can be taken care of with allergy medicine. I'll just have to keep taking that on a daily basis. As well as having my EpiPen on hand, at all times. Which, I already did.
I guess that's really been the only things to happen lately. We all know my life is pretty boring. Though, the Asperger's part has been on my mind, a lot, lately. Every time I think of the life I want to give Mia but can't unless I get help from someone. It hurts.