I've realized something, and I don't know if this is the true moment I became a Mom and not just a mother, but whenever I look at Amelia, I just smile. She is the light of my world. It doesn't matter if I had a bad day at work or I'm depressed, just holding her makes everything right. I'm so thankful that I get to be the mother of this beautiful, amazing, adorable, little girl. I don't know how anyone can look at their child and not see that. This little human being doesn't know hate. She just knows love. That's one of the many, many, reasons I love her more than anything in the world. Then there are those times where she just looks at me and smiles and there is nothing wrong with the world.
This is going to sound silly, but I think I want to take Mia to Paris for her 5th birthday. Her memory is formed around that age, so she'll remember it and I can finally go there. Hopefully, I can save enough money and she'll want to go. Which also means, I'll accept any donations to go! I think it will be a very good experience for Amelia. Getting to travel to a new country at such a young age, it'll give her an experience no other kids will have had then. Sadly, we still have to wait 5 years to go. IF I can save up the money in time. I'm not even sure how much I need to save up. Maybe like $5000 or so. I should research that.
Mom and I are planning to take Mia camping for the first time over my birthday. We'll be going to Jacksonville, FL and going to a parade they have for Wiccans. I plan to take Mia to the zoo so she can see the birds, since she's in love with those. I've just been wanting to go to the beach since I haven't been in a few years, but I wanted to go camping, as well. Then, Mom heard about the parade going on and we decide to just do it all together. That means I have a few months to be able to lose some weight and feel confident in a bathing suit. I think that's all for today.
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