Two Weeks Old

Amelia is two weeks old today. Many things have happened since I last posted. We came home March 25th. She has been doing wonderfully. She went off the Oxygen and feeding tubes and all the other wires so quickly, everyone was shocked. She did amazingly. My little baby girl is obviously such a fighter. Just like her Mama. She's loving home life. She is so spoiled. Extremely spoiled. Mainly my fault. I barely let her lay down or do anything on her own. I just love snuggling her. How can I not? She's my first child and I hate to hear her cry. It doesn't help that she keeps getting stomach aches. Which really isn't fair. I've stopped eating everything I've been told to. Its not helping though. Then you've got me who gets depressed because I can't help her. Nothing I do ever works. Thankfully, my mom is able to get her to stop crying with her tummy aches. Unfortunately, it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong. I know I'm not and that it's because my mom has more experience with this type of thing, but I don't know. I feel bad that I'm her mother and can't help with her tummy aches. I've already had issues with the Baby Blues/Postpartum depression, so I'm sure that's not helping me think this, but seriously. I just feel bad, like I'm not being a good mom or something. I need to get that thought out of my head.

I was doing so good with my bleeding and all, didn't need a blood transfusion, but I'm starting to have issues with being dizzy and lightheaded again. We figured it was lack of eating, but I ate and it didn't help at all. I'm still dizzy. Still lightheaded. And still have a headache. I'm pretty sure it has to do with blood loss or the fact I can't take my iron pills (I think it makes Mia have more tummy aches, they decreased when I stopped taking them). Maybe its that I stopped consuming caffeine. I know that's not good for her either. I've stopped caffeine, onions, and most dairy. I'm sure my body is missing stuff that its used to. Who knows, really. Probably should see a doctor for that, but I'm just concerned about making my baby feel better. She's more important.
One day, me and little Miss Mia will do wonderfully. I hope so, at least. I'm sure we will one day.

Something that doesn't deal with Amelia or I... the Furious 7 movie came out today. Yes, I want to see it really badly, but no, I will not be seeing it anytime soon. When your sister AND her boyfriend teared up during it because the tribute scene to Paul, you know if you have a tattoo for Paul and shut down for a week after his passing, you're not going to be able to see it. You bet, I will buy the DVD the day it comes out, but I HIGHLY doubt I will be seeing it in theaters. Maybe though. Maybe being the key word. Please, don't tell me anything about the movie. I only know what the previews have shown and that I will lose it when I see it. In due time. ;)