Five weeks old

I can't believe my baby is five weeks old today! I do not approve at all. It feels like it was yesterday that I spent 21 hours in labor waiting for her to make her appearance. She is the greatest thing to ever happen to me. I know there are things in my past the I regret, but I wouldn't change them... Why? Because it all led up to Amelia being born. Its that butterfly effect thing. Changing one thing, could make it so I didn't have her. She really is the best thing that has happened to me. I used to be so upset thinking something was missing from my life, but when I found out I was pregnant, that all changed. My life had purpose. Then when I had Mia, everything was just perfect. Its the only way to describe it. Nothing could go wrong the day I had her. I'll always remember the first time I held her, it finally felt real. I had a daughter. I was now a mother. Life was no longer about me. Its about Amelia. Amelia is now my life.
I don't think people realize how much your life changes when you have a child. People think "oh, I have a kid now, I can't go party"..."can't go out every night"..."can't do this" "can't do that"... But you know what, yes it does change. But for the better! You now have this little miracle that thinks you're the greatest thing to ever happen. You feed them, change them, bathe them, love them, gave them life. Yeah, you can't go to that party your friends are going to, but who cares. Spending that time with your child helps you get this bond. That most amazing bond you'll ever have. You love your child in a way that words can describe. Love isn't even a strong enough word to describe how you feel about your child. Then, one night, you decide to go out with friends. You know what you're going to do the whole time? You're going to miss your baby. You're going to call/text the babysitter 20 times just to see how they're doing. You're going to go home earlier so you can see your baby.
Now, imagine your life as a single mom. There is even more love in your heart. Going out with friends doesn't matter as much as before. Your good days are spent cuddling your child, all day, watching TV or reading a book. These are the ways your life change with a child. Its not all bad like some people want you to think. At least, these are things that I feel. My life is so much better with Mia. Yes, I'm a single mom, but who cares? Mia and I have got this down. She's my rock. She's the reason I get up every day. I love my baby girl.
And I know I rambled, I'd apologize, but I regret nothing :)