Baby shower is in ten days. I'm really excited, but nervous. What if Amelia decides that that's the day she wants to come out? I can see it now. In the middle of the shower just look at my mom... "hey mommy.... water broke" Am I the only one that is scared of that? Also, I'm scared to death of going into labor. It just doesn't seem real. I try to think about it to prepare myself, but it just seems weird. Actually, the fact that I am pregnant is still a bit weird. Still seems unreal. And to think, in a little over five weeks, she'll be here. It's actually very nerve racking. Knowing that I have people who will be helping me, makes it a little better. Still scary though.
As many of you know, my dream has always been to be a model. Well, earlier last year, I applied for a school for modeling. This school has had the most models come out. Last night I got an answer from them finally... I was accepted. This is a dream come true. But, I have a small problem with that... I am 34 weeks pregnant. I doubt they'll still want me. They do have people who modeled for BabiesRUs. Maybe they could use another pregnant lady. The email said to call and go to Baltimore to meet with a few agents. Again, though... 34 weeks pregnant. I know I should call them and see if they could use a pregnant model or wait for me to get my body back. Should only be about four months to get it back. My dream is so close I can taste it. But again, pregnant. I don't regret being pregnant at all, I just wish they would've waited a few more months to finally respond.
Lastly, Amelia is really trying to get out. There has been so much pain, nausea, exhaustion, etc. She has been moving so much. And, she loves hitting my bladder, I swear. It must be her favorite pastime or something. I'm seriously ready for her to come out already. I don't want her out too early that I have to see her in NICU. I just want to meet my baby girl. Soon, hopefully.
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