Just thoughts...

I know I'm gonna get yelled at for this, but do you ever feel like your family is just embarrassed or ashamed of you? I'm really starting to feel that way. My parents go out a lot, either just them or with my sister. When I want to go, we apparently never have the money or no one wants to go. I know, I'm 22 and all, but I still live with them and I'm a part of this family. I also know that once Amelia is out, they'll take her everywhere. I'm not sure if this is pregnancy emotions, Asperger's, or selfishness, but still. I shouldn't feel like I'm not part of the family. And my dad and sister went out Black Friday Shopping today and got stuff for each of them and my mom and when I asked if I got anything, I was told no. That I have a job, if I want it, get it. And that since I have a baby on the way, I will only be getting stuff for her for Christmas. I understand that because babies are expensive, but seriously, nothing? It just, I don't know... It hurts. I seriously feel like a burden half the time and I can't just straight out tell them I feel like that. And, I know they rarely ever read my blog, so not like they'll really see this any way. I'm probably just having a pity party or something. Oh well. I'll get over it. I hope.