To Mommy...

You've told me to write down my feelings in my blog. To think of it as a diary, but public. Well, its helped me more than anyone can understand. This entry is to you though. I don't know how to say it to you, so I'm using this.... After the appointment yesterday, I am absolutely terrified of what will happen the 29th. Y'all will be in Florida and I'll be here. What if something happens? Especially, since we know I've been having contractions. What if I start dilating? What if I'm put on bed rest? What if I go into labor? What if something is wrong and I have to have a C-section? I know you and dad tell me not to worry, but that really does not help me. Especially, when the Midwife was concerned. I don't want to be selfish, but I really don't want you to go. I need my mommy. Yes, I know, I'm 22 with a child on the way. This is still scary to think of going through alone. With you being 14 hours away. I really hope nothing will happen, but with what has gone on so far, I'm going to be scared... Just thought I should tell you this one way or another. This was the best way I could think of besides writing you a note, then you said your gym appointment was canceled and there went the note idea. Hopefully, you'll understand that I'm really not trying to be selfish, I just rather be safe than sorry.